So its been a productive yet artistically unproductive break so far. crackneko Spent two weeks here and that was great fun! I miss her company already. ;.; She did help us(my roomies and I) get the whole apartment sparkling though! It hasn't looked this nice since we moved in. >_> We fail at organization. Also we are the proud owners of two sewing machines, which we happened to acquire in one week! The lady in the fabric store across the street let us keep a bunch of free patterns too. I found a cool bunny plush pattern and a few skirt ones. I wanna make cute bunnies for my friends. Now if I can figure out how to work the machine... Also I found an epson multi purpose printer/scanner for really cheap and am giving my old hp to a better home. My poor old machine looks kind of sad though.

The best part of this break was that I finally am getting financial aid! Yaaay no more worrying about how to finance my expensive tuition. I'm taking a full load this year again. Also I have decided to take three art classes and one liberal art instead of wussing out and taking two liberal arts and two studios. I need to kick my own ass into drawing and painting again after the epic fail of last semester. I'm taking clothed figure painting (planning to switch from acrylic to oils this time around.) Clothed figure drawing 2 and the class I'm most excited about.... Digital painting! I hope I manage to keep up with the work load. I had to switch my history of comics class with history of film cause it conflicted with my other class. Sorry paradoxhorizon it looks like I'll only have digital painting with you. ;.;

Other than that, I've been reading a lot of nonfiction (a fascinating book called the trouble with Islam today by Irshad Manji. Its a really good read!) , playing video games, rping with ensui_fan, and generally taking advantage of being able to be as lazy as I like until the semester starts again.

First of all thank you amai_kaminari for the adorable snowflake! It was so sweet of you!

Its been a lazyish weekend. I know I should be working since I only have two weeks of school left, but I keep having this bout of lethargy I cannot seem to shake off. I think its the cold weather. It makes me want to hibernate. IT SNOWED TODAY!!! WTF SAN FRANCISCO?! It never snows here!! I hope its not too rainy tomorrow. The last thing I need is to slide down Powell hill and into traffic. At least I have insurance now. I went to the hospital offices on Friday and they gave me an insurance and waived my bill for me. Woot! So one less thing to worry over. I cant believe I made it through the day! I had my 7 hour water color class right after. We're doing a children's story 2 page spread illustration. I have decided I wanted to do One thousand and one Arabian Nights because I want to learn how to paint brown people. After purchasing a copy of The Nights I realize how wonderfully risque it really is! misosoupaddict and I were cracking up reading it in class. Basically its about two King brothers Shahriyar and Shahzaman ( the latter who hilariously has my last name in his name.)The younger had a wife who had an affair with a servant and he killed them both, emoed for a while and his brother had a hunt to cheer him up but he was too emo to go, so he hung around the castle and witnessed his older brother's wife have like an orgy with a bunch of hot black men. And then he was basically like..."Ok my life isnt that bad." So he told his brother and then they had a bromance (literally!) and ran off for a while deciding that until they find someone whose lives suck more than theirs they wont go back to their respective kingdoms. So they come across a very phallic sounding demon who had this woman he snatched away locked in a chest and was all gloating about how his captive wife was so pure and chaste. The Kings hid up in a tree in the meanwhile. The demon let the woman out while he slept, I guess he wasn't very bright and he woman demanded the two kings to fuck her or she would have her husband kill them. So after very little arguing, they did and she took their rings and said that with them she had fucked a hundred men while the demon thought she was so pure LOL. And the kings felt bad for the demon and decided that life definitely sucked more for him.
They went back to their respective kingdoms and Shariar now very disenfranchised with women, decides he will marry a woman a night and behead them in the morning. Some children's book this ones gonna be huh? XD;; The bromance aspect was awesome tho. Even misosoupaddict who isnt into that kinda thing wanted to slash them!

Saturday misosoupaddict and I went to Berkley cause I wanted indian food and the motherland was calling or something. I also found an awesome Costume history tome that will have all the historical reference I need for years to come. I was so happy!!!

I'm doing my comics homework now. Im glad this class is kicking my ass into working on m own comic. My teacher and I were joking about how many upshots I'll need to show the sheer epicness of my main character. Hes a badass mafiash CEO yo, who you would upshot just drinking coffee or on the toilet to epic orchestral music. Which reminds me. I had a dream a week ago about children with exploding heads and there was an entire musical sequence of children running around with thier heads exploding to orchestral music. It was weird and I think its a sign to get more sleep and that caffeine is bad before bed.

Can semester be done yet? Can I just sleep for two weeks straight and not have to worry about bills or work or dream about watercolor or exploding children? Do I have to got to the hospital at 830 in the morning tomorrow to figure out what to do about this bill and then go immediately to class after for six hours? Do I have to have two finished projects due as well as ink illustrations? Can I just curl up in a tiny ball and cry for a while? Can I stop being irate at everyone and everything that crosses my path? Can I go out for a drink sometime soon? Or go out in general? Can this god forsaken headache just go away?

Can I survive the amount of work I need to finish over the next two weeks?

I'm over school.

I came home today and Christina tells me she found this article while on Yahoo news.

http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2009/11/24/BA681APQCR.DTL

Apparently a pizza guy got stabbed early last morning. The jacked up part is that the pizza place was right next door to my old apartment. I used to go there all the time and some of the young guys who worked there late nights were really really sweet. Its really sad to think that one of them had gone in such a brutal way. And even more disturbing that it happened right in front of the place I used to live only eight months ago. It was a random killing too by a crazy person. Certainly there are quite a lot of crazy or drunk people in that neighborhood. I remember how many people would be ranting and raving just after 11 around the tendernob, it was part of the reason that we decided to move to inner richmond to begin with. Its just really sad that it had to happen, and especially to someone so nice.

This definately looked like a lot of fun so I guess I'll take a crack at it. <3


∙ Leave me a comment saying: "MY ANUS IS BLEEDING!"
∙ I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better!
∙ Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
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For sarene:


1) It's kind of a simple question, but how are you? You got all crazy sick after con, right? <3

Much better thank you.<3 I'm still coughing a little but other than that I'm almost as good as new. ^_^

2) lolhey, what ethnicity are you? I was wondering at con, but ya, didn't want to sound like some kind of like racist dick. XD

Nah nothing racist about that question. My rents are from Bangladesh, but ancestrally I'm from West Bengal in India. I think I'm also 1/16th Yemeni. XD Just a buncha brown people shoved together LOL


3) since you haven't gotten around to a y!con report, did you get up to any shenanigans in SF? X3

XD You mean at the con or in general? You witnessed the main of our shenanigans at the party. XD;; We went to in and out and Cho Hakkai fan was thoroughly traumatized by my friend's driving, Also I kind of accidentally knocked her down on a curb, thankfully she didnt get hurt o.o;; . In general I get into all kinds of strange shenanigans.... once we took the condoms from the womens clinic, blew them up and shoved glow sticks in them to make condom lanterns. It was fun XD.

4) You're in art school, right? *stalking your profile for questions to ask* What're you studying and what's your dream future career?

I'm majoring in Illustration with an emphasis on comics. I would love to get paid for drawing. I just love storytelling in general and if I can draw or paint pictures that tell a story that pretty much rocks my socks. I would like to do comics for my self and maybe publish my own book someday. Thats my dream career.

5) uhhhhhhhhh why can't I ever think of a 5th question? XD uhhhhm... Ah! I just put two and two together that you live in SF. Dude, we live close to each other! well, a few hours, but still!

XD Yay! We should definitely hang out next time you're in town ^_^ <3

For eyesofshinigami:


1. What do you plan to do once you get out of college?

Man I've been mulling that over all semester. I would like ideally to get a job in illustration, but the industry is really hard to get into so I'll prolly take whatever job I can get. I wanna wait until ChoHakkaiFan graduates and maybe we will try for the Teaching English in Japan program. They have good pay and good hours and a pretty high demand for native english speakers. I know intermediate japanese and want to get better at conversations so thats one way to do it. Its still really open ended so I'll just have to see.

2. If you were offered to fly to anywhere in the world, free of charge, where would it be and why?

Asides from Japan to feed my Otaku nature? Maybe south east asia. Thailand, Malaysia or Indonesia.... They have some really pretty art and architecture there. and I like traveling to exotic places LOL

3. Where is your ideal place to live?

I kind of like it here in SF, but asides from that I like cities and places a bit more laid back and easygoing as far as politics and stuff goes.


4. Tell me about your dream job.

Drawing pretty pictures and getting paid for it. XD I'd like to make my own comic someday or bring out an artbook when I'm good enough. If I can manage to do that I think I can die happy.

5. Do you have any other ideas for cosplay?

I like adding a little bit on my Yisou cosplay every year and make it better and better. For him I want to make his Donald Duck pajamas since Minekura mentioned in one of her interviews that he sleeps in them. Maybe I'll make his creepy baby puppet doll as well. Its in progress but it looks like Quagmire from family guy at the moment.

Asides from saiyuki, I would like to do a Kusuriuri cosplay from the anime Mononoke. But that would take time and money that I don't have at the moment.

That was really fun!

Its terrible when you wake up in the morning, stare blankly into space and think... I should do my homework...but I want to draw porn.

So... Been out of commission for all of two weeks. The good news is that I'm better now from that nasty bout of swine flu. The bad news is thinking of how the hell I am going to be able to make up the pile of work that had accumulated over the past few weeks without falling ill again. Can it be break yet? And somehow I magically passed all my classes and produced awesome work for my portfolio? The past two weeks was a codeine induced haze.

So still need to finish my watercolor of Dr. Horrible. And decide on what animal to paint for the next project and do a color rough for that. I think I'm going to do an arctic fox cause they are so friggin cute! They also have the kinda fox smile that I seem to like characters with. I don't think I can salvage my grade in my english class though so maybe I'll drop it. Stupid boring english 3 with your stupid persuasive essays.

I still owe you guys a Yaoicon 2009 report as well as pictures. I hope I'll have them up soon.

Since I'm quarantined at home anyway, and I'm tired of sleeping. I watched this cool movie on youtube. Its a independent flash animation about the Ramayana (an old Indian epic) Its pretty cool. It adds elements of indian art and culture in a hilarious modern way. Anyway I wanted to share this. Its a bit long like almost 2 hrs but well worth it.



Anyway the interesting thing is that the woman who made this was put under fire since she used the Ramayana and I heard some of my indian friends complain that she cant use it since she is white. But thats kind of stupid isn't it? Being from that region myself, I don't feel offended. It should not matter what culture one belong to, I mean if someone feels a deep connection to a story, then they feel it right? Silly nationalists.

Ycon was a blast but thursday I was hospitalized with a 103 fever. Still recovering from the superflu. All my pills make me pass out, I'll give a full ycon report when i'm not too dizzy to sit up.

Instead of doing my hw like a good art student today I spent time making little cosplay props.

Here are Yisou's mahjong counters and Hakkai's Chi ball (made for ensui_fan



Hakkai's ball glows in the dark!!! <3

I want to do a lot of minute details to my cosplay this year. Lets see how it all comes together.

Oh and I just wanted to share this....




The vajra on the right is my favorite souvenir from my trip to Nepal. Maybe I can do a Kami-sama cosplay in the future?

It was a good day. Cleaned the house somewhat. ensui_fan is coming over this thursday for Yaoicon so I want the place to be presentable at least. This apt looks better than the last one where we couldnt see the floor so at least that is an improvement. I still need to pack so I remember to take all the components for Yisou's costume. Both the manga one and the one in backgammon.

The best part of today was that the second musical finally came out! It was fun and wonderfully campy. I love the stringy violin music that follow Yisou around. It suited him pretty well. Even though they turned the centipede scene into a fight scene they still pulled it off really well. And Lian Li was the prettiest lady EVAR! ♥

I need to finish my hw fast. Like in the next 2 days. I did some designs for the alice in wonderland project, and I'm still a bit vague on the how finished he wants this thing. Also doing Dr. Horrible for my watercolor class. He's fun to paint and I have an inkling that I'll have to take my watercolors to the con and work on it there as well. x.x A midterm on Wed and a quiz on Thursday. Looks like the con will be the closest thing to a vacation I'll have.

Anyway, those people on my f-list that are going, I'm really excited to hang out with you guys again! And I'll see everyone else if I survive this crazy week.

On the positive note...Going to the cartoon art museum today.

On the down side. I'm still not done with hw.

OMG PANELING IS HAAAARD~!

*FLAILS ABOUT*

Its the 2am panic setting in right about now.

Monday feels like it is always lost in doing a flurry of last minute homework. I forgot how much work taking a full load entails. The weekend is usually spent trying to recuperate from my week of pulling all nighters left and right only to repeat the same cycle the following week. Damn I really need to get better at time managing. This weekend was fun though. I got to hang with speedtracer and moonflurry Its been a while since I have gotten to see them and the last year it was only seeing them for a short lunch before it was off to rushing home to finish hw. It makes me nostalgic a bit though. Those girls are pretty much my first friends at the academy and had dragged me along to my first ycon as well as the first time I'd sold work. It felt like I had more time to do things back then. Maybe my core classes ask more of me and I have to put more effort in doing good. I'm worried about my comics class the most since I feel like if I fail at that I'll have no hope at all since thats my friggin major I'm doing okay in it I suppose but its hard to keep up with the workload. I'm really loving my watercolor illustration class though. We're designing bags and my illustration has role reversal in it. My english class feels pointless. Its beyond easy and the academy seems to have low standard on writing in general it seems.

Ah on a mildly amusing note. We were brainstorming ideas in my Illustration 2 cause one of my classmates is in my Comics 1 class as well. She's doing something victorian so we started pitching ideas and some how we ended up with JACK THE RIPPER- APOCALYPTIC ZOMBIE HUNTER! That would be the best B movie ever. I wanna do an illustration for it now. And I love other sleep deprived illustrators. Where else can you get such wonderfully cracktastic ideas?

Bah I miss being online and doing creative things I want to do. I WANT TO DRAW MAN PORN. I wanna work on my cosplay makeup before yaoicon rolls around. I really don't want to do hw anymore.

20 books for $20. It was a good day to be a bibliophile.

Note to self:

STOP EPIC FAILING. EAT YOUR STUPID BAGEL AND DO YOUR DAMN HOMEWORK.

Damn flu season gets me every time. x.x So much hw to make up and school just started. Fail.

October looks really exciting. Between ensui_fan coming and ycon. Need to figure out my make up this year. crackneko left me her make up kit and now its just practice just to get it right. This year my goal is to be creepier than ever! I might try the artbook cosplay again this year since I lost enough weight to fit into the jacket again and I wont get caught in doors with the sleeves like with the other Yisou costume. It was really bad when I got it caught in the bart turnstile thingies once. ensui_fan is going as Hakkai again so we can pimp our OTP out. Im attempting to make the puppet he carries but my paper clay seems resistant to my ministrations so we'll see how it goes.

Now...I really should get on my homework before I die...

Its been a long summer. But all in all a pleasant one. I managed to get at least two things that I had longed for, for a long time worked out wonderfully. One of them was wanting to go to Nepal, and the other... well I don't think I will mention it right now.

June:

Went back to my parents in Bangladesh. Found out lil brother had started cutting himself. Poor kid, I understand its pretty hard for him there with the huge culture shock. I've been there and it sucks ass. He's adjusting better now though so I'm happy. My rents went on thier usual OMG you need to lose weight thing they usually go on. It was rather irritating, and It didnt really work at all either. I wish they'd leave me about it but I've kinda got used to it. Other than that I caught up on a lot of reading.

July:

NEPAL! ♥ I think I've found a country I have fallen in love with utterly. Not only does this country have such a rich Hindu/Buddhist culture, There is art at every corner. People devoting themselves to art the making and worshiping of it. For an artist it was heaven. I'm considering learning Thunka painting there for a bit after I graduate, First we went to Khatmandu, which has as much awesome nightlife as it does beautiful art and architecture I went up to this temple, which is called Swambunath or the monkey temple. I swear I have never climbed as many steps as I have done then. The last set had to have been at a 70 degree angle! I think I almost fell off once... But the view at the top was spectacular! And there were some adorable Tibetan monks too. Boudhanath was another temple we visited and it was just as lovely. People circled around the temple spinning prayer wheels they had to spin for a certain number of times. Then we went off to a place called Nagarkot where if the skies are clear one can get a view of mount Everest. Unfortunately for us we weren't lucky enough to see it, although we did see some of the loveliness of the himalayas. People in the mountains seem to have such a serene lifestyle. Then we went back to Khatmandu to take a bus to Pokhara, Its a lovely lake town and has a view for one of the other ranges. We had no luck there either. It was raining heavily so again no mountains. ;_; But all in all it was a fantastic trip. I'll upload pictures later. My dad is talking about maybe trying a trip to Tibet through Khatmandu. >_> I did spend a lot of money though. But I bought some cool things. Like the five pronged Vajra Kami sama likes to use in Saiyuki. It doesn't shoot beads though. And stuff for the apt. I want to go back again.

August:

Went back to Bangladesh. And we decided to take a trip to the sea near burma. I got to visit the port city where my dad grew up. We stayed with a childhood friend of his, who was kind of a racist jerk. >.< The sea was beautiful though and it was by the indian ocean. In a nerdy moment I thought of Goujun cause he was supposed to rule that sea. Then we went to the burmese market and bought some burmese souvenirs. Two weeks after that I came back here. The long plane ride was longer than normal. and I'm glad to be home. I think misosoupaddict was happy, I think she was going crazy from being alone too long. I'm just glad she didnt start licking the walls. I'm picking up my other room mate and a close friend from high school tomorrow, so I should probably start heading off to bed.

I hopefully will have some nepal pictures up soon!

Finals.... It's bearable so far. I think that I'm passing all my classes thankfully. It took a lot of extra work to make up everything after all the crap that has been thrown at me this semester. I seem to say that every semester it seems.. .Perhaps I should learn to cope better with things.

Anyway I handed in my illustration homework. We had to do an editorial and a celebrity illustration. For my celebrity I chose david bowie in his goblin king garb in watercolor... It took dix hours but I had a lot of fun doing it. My editorial was much more boring so I thought it looked a bit unfinished and weak. I ended up getting an A- on the editorial and a C+ on the bowie one... I mean from a grade stand point, the editorial was worth 3 grades so it should boost my average up more, but I really had so much fun with the bowie one. I mean I guess he looked kinda girlish but that end us happening with a lot of my illustrations. I cant seem to get away from drawing butch women and girlish men... Maybe I should just draw hermaphrodites as a career to escape that flaw. o_o;; I guess it ended up depressing me more than it should.

Also I need to do laundry desperately soon. Not to mention groceries. You know its bad when we consider making hotdog onigiri because thats all we have in stock. >_> It should have been a mac and cheese night if we had mac and cheese. Maybe Ill make egg curry when we get some eggs.

Anyway one class down, two to go. I have a art history test tomorrow. I hope the vagina table comes up on the slides since its kind of fun. and then all I have to worry about is finishing my painting for my figure painting class.

Only a bit more...

I think I want to sleep for a week after this.

Title: Yisou orgasm face timez. (ohhh such a serious title)
Artist: bunnyfetishist
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Not Worksafe...at all.
Character(s): Cho Hakkai x Chin Yisou
Medium: Sketched in mechanical pencil and then painted in photoshop.
Time Taken: Two or three days. My painting instructor would lol for me using the painting techniques he taught me for this.
Note: This was loosely based off a rp I had with ensui_fan although it didnt take place on a kitchen counter.

( Your face twisted in painful pleasure. )

Yea... Totally wasting time on drawing porn instead of doing the painting I need to be doing for school. 4 weeks left and counting. I wonder if I'll manage to get everything finished in time. I mean I shouldn't complain. I' getting to draw slight homosexual necrophillia and man tension with historic figures. Who could complain right? except for the fucking persian backgrounds!!!! I hate drawing environments!!! Especially if every single god damed thing in the back ground is textured! x.x Not to mention the massive amount of make up work I have for my figure painting class.

If I survive through the next few weeks I'm entitled to a cookie.